March 2009
I am glad to be here, this despite the fact that I still cannot see, nor can I even begin to imagine what my role will look like here. I almost think if I "do" nothing else but be an encouragement for a few of the folks, then so be it, while my time here lasts.
It’s a strange feeling, this lack of “needing” to work. All around me, people are losing their jobs and needing to find work. Not in my case. And I am ever so conscious of that fact. God is gracious and merciful in our lives. I really do need to be mindful and a good steward of all that has been given – for me, my home, and my time.
I’m thankful for the community we’ve found at Missio Dei. God has given us a group of people to care and be cared for. I’m glad we’ve been able to just jump in, in big and small ways. It’s been a good thing for me… and humbling.
April 8, 2009
Waiting. It’s never easy to wait. It’s not natural to me, even though some may think I’m good at it. But I’m really not good at it,... once I lose sight of God. I’m actually one who can get quite quietly anxious over things. “Quietly” because that is my nature; “Anxious” because that is my heart. And so I plod along in life and trust God, but once in a while, I feel an uncomfortable flutter in me. A “je ne sais quoi.” And I know I have lost sight of my God.
Well, waiting… for life to happen… for my next step… for an email or a phone call… waiting. And sometimes, I flutter, like tonight. I know that waiting happens. And that God’s timing is good. I know it full well, especially in light of all that has happened in this past half year. Yet I am so forgetful, and easily let “wait” turn into “anxious”… and a listlessness… and a drifting.
1 comment:
wait until your funeral. now that's a full circle indeed. i can't wait for mine. i'm gonna pop out of my coffin and demand admission.
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